From clifford, Age 15 - 07/06/04 - IP#: 67.40.165.xxx  Click here to reply  
god today i got upset cuz my dad called and was threatening to call the police to make me go with him tonight since i didnt want to go and i was cryin for like 30-60 mins and i was almost hyperventalating and I was just so scared and didnt no whut to do and was depressed i was hitting myself thorwing things and of course whut i hate is eating and now i feel bad even my 2 10 mile bike rides that burned 772 cals didnt help me any and I hate it and feel that I need to do something and I just feel like hurting myself i was hitting my self earlier cuz i was sooo upset and then i read this journal my mom started when i was 16 months and enede it like 2 years later and I was just really upset and it had stuff bout my cousin who died and my cousin who moved to chicago and havent seen in a while and I just wish everything would get better I hate my life and I am constantly eatin when i get sad or depressed and i need help with that but i dont want to talk to any like no professional or anything cuz they think they no me and they dont and I hate it y is this like this. well so al in all i ate like crap and am totally not motivated to loose this weight right now i hate life someone please help me
Reply from jessica, Age 14 - 07/07/04  - IP#: 205.188.116.xxx
Hey clifford...i will talk to ya...do you have an email address or something? mines foxdramasweetie@aol.com i hope to hear from ya
 
Reply from Catherine, Age 15 - 07/06/04  - IP#: 67.168.60.xxx
Hang in there! Life will get better. Dont hit yourself. Just know that you are a great person, and you dont sound like your dad. One day you will be 18, and can take care of yourself. You wont have to see him ever again if you dont want to. Just 3 years, and then you can have the rest of your life. Eat healthy, and try to do something that makes you happy besides eating when things make you sad. Just let all your emotions out, and try to look on the bright side. i know it is rough, but thats why we are here! Please smile, and be happy!!
 
Reply from Kaitlyn, Age 14 - 07/06/04  - IP#: 216.74.216.xxx
I know how you feel about your dad, mine hasn't called in a long time. He had a child w/ another women a few months after me, so that is really sad for me sometimes. I don't he knows that I know, like on her b day he is like "Samantha is turning 14 and we are gonna invite her to come here" ( all of his kids accept one don't live w/ him and she just turned 8, plus his girlfriend and his kid, which is like 20 days older than me!) Does he think that I don't know? Sorry for rambling, I feel a lot worse for you than myself. I know that I get depressed and in your situation I would cry over and over and would really be depressed. But what can he do if you don't want to see him? Even if he did call the police, they can't force you to go w/ them!!! Stand up for yourself!!!!
 
Reply from JS, Age 12 - 07/06/04  - IP#: 148.167.126.xxx
hey, dont worry about weight loss now. wait until life gets a little better. it WILL get better, no matter how hard it seems right now. stay strong.