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From Kathy, Age 16

Ht. 5'3", Start: 353 lb, Today: 395 lb, Goal: 150 lb - I have been doing better. Until now, I have been gaining weight at a ridiculous rate. Recently, I haven't been. I have been trying to keep from eating the massive portions that I am used to consuming. Today was the first day that I lost control in a while. Today I ate a huge amount. And the sad thing is I feel so good because I ate so much. My stomach started to feel tight and full like I like it to feel after binging all day. Why does it feel so good to just be fat and eat what I want? For breakfast I had 3 biscuits from mcd's and a large coke. For lunch, a huge bag of chips, and a twelve inch pizza. For dinner, a burger, fries, two hot dogs and since dinner I've had more chips, three more cans of coke and two hot pockets. I just can't help myself! I can feel myself going back to my old ways already. I have a doctors appointment in two months to check up on me, because they were very concerned last time with how large I was. I really want my doctor to be impressed instead of disappointed, but I just can't do it. I am happier and stuff if I can binge eat, and I hate getting too fat for my clothes but I don't mind not being able to do some stuff because im fat. I know I'm gonna need new clothes at some point though, as I get fatter j can't really suck in to button my pants and I usually have to lay on my back to button them, but I can't do that at school because I can't stand up from the floor on my own.