From Jess, Age 20 - 03/24/16 - IP#: 96.255.185.xxx Click here to reply Ht. 5'4", Start: 232 lb, Today: 211 lb (BMI: 36), Goal: 140 lb - I feel like I should post in here cause more people come in here haha but anyways I'm not to happy I gained a couple pounds ugh! Always tomorrow to start over I guess. I am nervous because my crush and I are going out with a group in a couple weeks and I get embarrassed really easily and I'm uptight mainly because of my weight and I think people are looking/judging me when I know they aren't it's just a really hard thing for me.In school I was bullied and I felt like you had to be skinny to be pretty and no one would ever like me because of my weight and now I see it's not like that but I can't help having those thoughts.
Reply from Raven, Age 21 - 07/22/16 - IP#: 99.100.166.xxx I completely understand how you feel about feeling like people are judging you, I used to feel the exact same way every time I went shopping and would see girls the same age as me and dozens of pounds skinnier. Going out to eat I'd feel judged for what I was eating and if I didn't order anything I'd be criticized for that too. But over the past year I've worked on rebuilding myself physically and mentally and putting my health at the top of my list of how I spend my life. If there's anything I've learned is that most people weren't actually staring at me or talking about me behind my back. The point I'm trying to make here is that I wish I could go back years ago when I was just 11 years old and first started feeling bad about the way I looked. I wish I could go back and tell myself that the only one who could make me uncomfortable in my own skin was me. Don't let your fears hold you back don't let them keep you from having a life and living it to the fullest like I let my fears do to me for so many years. They still have their grip on me and they still spend their time trying to hold me back but what's changed from those years ago is that I fight too. I fight them every time I walk by a group of people and they start laughing, every time I try on clothes that are tighter than an oversized sweater...and you should fight your fears and insecurities now before they take away even more time you could've spent being happy and free in your own skin. My best wishes to you and I hope you find the carefree happiness you deserve