From Dran, Age 15 - 07/06/04 - IP#: 24.71.223.xxx  Click here to reply  
Argh.. Okay. For real this time. I've totally hit bottom. I just can't stop eating! I've gotta stop, or else I'll end up killing myself by being so unhealthy. I really think what I look like is disgusting. I'm going to wake up tommorrow and weigh myself. I'm really afraid of doing it. I'm probably about 175 pounds. I have to lose weight, because I couldn't forgive myself if I ever went up to 200 ilbs (no offence to anyone that is 200 ilbs) its just that I've been battling my weight so many years, and this time I just want to make it. I know I can. I have Dance Dance. Its friggin awsome! SO much fun and exersizes like crazy. This time I'm going to do it. I swear, I swear to GOD that I'll do it. I'd only swear to god if I ment it, and I do. I mean it. I'm actually going to do it this time. My life is in MY hands and I'm going to do whatever it takes to get it the way I want it to. A couple of months back I bought this really cute bikini top and I want to be able to wear it by the end of this summer. I can do it, I know I can. Right everybody? Gee. I feel so motivated now :p