From Victoria, Age 19 - 07/08/11 - IP#: 184.153.227.xxx  Click here to reply  
Ht. 5'6", Start: 285 lb, Today: 285 lb (BMI %tile: 98), Goal: 150 lb - I'm so tired of looking at myself unrealistically. I know that I'm overweight. It's obvious. My problem is as follows: On a good day, I see myself as stunning, beautiful, head-turning. And then I get disappointed when reality sets in and I realize I'm not getting the results I dreamed of. On bad days, I don't bother with anything. No hair-styling. No makeup. I regard myself as unworthy and sink into a sea of apathy. Even when people tell me I'm attractive, I scoff and shrug.
I know I can do this. I just need the motivation. I'm a natural stress eater, and I've got so much on my plate right now (metaphorically and literally). This hurts. And I can't keep doing it. I guess I'm interested in the accountability factor, so I'll post as often as possible. If you're interested in following my journey, I'll end each post with the following signature so you'll know it's me.
- Tori Leigh
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