From Mathijs, Age 19 - 11/15/17 - IP#: 82.74.4.xxx  Click here to reply  
Ht. 180 cm, Start: 66 kg, Today: 113 kg (BMI %tile: 98), Goal: 100 kg - Let me add to my previous post that I’m not proud that I want to gain like I was before. I’m acting like an addict. I see my weight go down and I have so many feelings. I’m glad and kinda sad at the same time. It’s like a angel and a demon are finghting on my shoulder for my weight. Even I ask how can anyone like being fat all the while I myself is just liking that. I don’t know what’s wrong with me... I ask myself vert often ‘are people like me just very sick?’ And I thought I won by losing weight like I did but I never won. I don’t want to end up bed bound, but that is where I see myself heading towards if I can’t get this under control, even though I’m far away from that point...  (Note: 180 cm, 113 kg is 5'10.9", 249.122 lb.)