From CLIFFORD, Age 15 - 04/09/04 - IP#: 67.40.172.xxx  Click here to reply  
I HATE MY LIFE SO FRICKKEN MUCH AND IT SUX I HAVE STARTED TO CUT MYSELF AND I HATE IT I REALLY NEED HELP AND FAST PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE HELP ME
Reply from Georgina, Age 15 - 04/11/04  - IP#: 82.43.115.xxx
Clifford,I'm so sorry you are experiencing sad things in your life which are making you feel bad inside. All I can say is that difficult experiences can make us stronger and when you are older you will be much more interesting and insightful towards other people's problems, than someone who has had an easier life!!! I have read your posts before and I admire the way you keep trying and (usually) seem so optimistic! It inspires me to keep going too. I just wanted to say that another girl living thousands of miles away (London)is thinking of you and knows a little of how you feel!!!!!! And about people who say insensitive things, Clifford just be stronger than them, don't get into a fight because it is weak. I know you are in lots of pain just now, but I also know you are going to develop into an amazing person!!!!!! Georgina xx
 
Reply from clifford, Age 15 - 04/11/04  - IP#: 67.40.172.xxx
yea she is she is so hypicritical man geez and i no whut i am talkin bout and i told one of my good friends cuz i couldnt hndle it and she told me she cuts to and we are here for eachother so chelsea can go f*** herself
 
Reply from anne, Age 17 - 04/11/04  - IP#: 216.66.107.xxx
lol. chelsea's such a loser
 
Reply from joanne, Age 12 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 4.236.186.xxx
I bet you cut yourself and bleed chocolate milk haha
 
Reply from chelsea, Age 15 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 205.188.116.xxx
Whatever man.. your stupid. I bet you told everyone...lol I don't even care. You won't even put your real name. I did care but now I don't.. I hope you go cut yourself a million times.. All your retarded friends can do it too. email eachother about how you cut yourselves.. If you think its cool..thats fine..whatever..My advice is you should stop because there's no point!!! anyway.. anorexia and bulima and suicide are stupid..but I moved on..your still stuck in your little .. I want to look hard core life.. Forget about it..I'm not gonna put anymore post up cuz its stupid..im not even gonna waste my time. I'm not gonna read any of yours either cuz I'm not gonna get myself all pissed off. Have a fun life..full of cutting and feeling sorry for yourselves..Peace..I'm out
 
Reply from clifford, Age 15 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 67.40.172.xxx
ok u guys i am not tryin to get attention i havent told any body but one person who is in my life and she tried to help me and i did stop for a while then the pressure got to me again and I started im not tellin anyone this time cuz they will tell the counselor and i dont want them to do that so I am not wanting attention i need help and i thought u guys could give it to me obviously there are only certain people on here that can help me along the way so anne please email me in case u forgot it is sweetie1855@msn.com
 
Reply from anne, Age 17 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 216.66.96.xxx
chelsea- you wrote that sarah was being close-minded when you told her your own opinion and didn't even accept hers. i think you're a very close-minded person because you think that people can only suffer in one way- and that's just not how it happens. what if i told you that anorexia, bulemia, and suicide are stupid? even though you couldn't help it? yeah- well- that's how so many other people feel right now when you say things like that. she's not out for attention- if she was she wouldn't be telling us, she'd be telling people who are in her life. she obviously needs help and telling her that's something she's doing is stupid just like the people in her life that made her feel like she was nothing is what you've done to her again. i understand you think that you're helping but i really don't think you are. there are also ,many people who have had hard lifes, including myself, but you wouldn't know that because you don't give people a chance...
 
Reply from chelsea, Age 15 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 152.163.252.xxx
ok..sarah..look. Don't leave blubberbusters because it really can help. I really didn't mean to make you feel bad. I'm trying to push you so you will stop..i know that being nice and saying I understand won't change anything. If your depressed about your weight..then you should stay..I'll help you if you need it..It's just that you should take a look at what I said and think about what your doing when you cut yourself..The reason I put that up there was because In my school..I was in the hospital this year after a suicide attempt and when i went back this girl came up to me and said "omg..I'm depressed to..look..and showed me her arm full of cuts" I got mad because I know she wanted attention..she was flaunting it to everyone. I'm not saying that that's how your acting but that is why I posted it. I am here to lose weight to..so don't say that I get on just to make comments about people and stuff..I am actually getting on track with a few people I met here. I want you to stay cuz we all have a right to be here and we all want to reach our goals. Well I have to go. I'm not going to post anymore cuz its getting stupid but if someone says something to piss me off..yea..ill speak my mind and don't even care..but I'm trying to say this..Not many people have it hard..sounds like you do..but have you noticed that a lot of kids act like they are suffering but they arn't? That's what pisses me off..I've been through a lot but that doesnt mean I'm gonna act like its the end of the world. If you need to talk my e mail is PainFilledEyes21@aol.com..you can IM me too if you want to. I wasn't trying to make you sad or anything like that...I'm actually trying to help you..It's called tough love..sometimes you need it..expecially if your doing something dumb like cutting yourself.. seriously..I'm here as a friend and when I read your post I thought you needed a push..a wake up call before you end up doing something serious like I did.. ok well..like I said..this is probably going to be my last post too..except if someone says something really stupid and pisses me off..kk bye and good luck..you can e mail me if you want
 
Reply from cliffords last post maybe, Age 15 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 67.40.172.xxx
oh my god im sorry that i made everyone fight i came here toget help and maybe u guys could talk to me but no u all fight god damn see i mae everything worse when i try to get help god damn u all and thanx anne and ray ray u guys helped a lil but everyone else r the ones who r makin me feel worse for doing it i was fine then they had to come and say some stuff and man anne email me at sweetie1855@msn.com or ray ray u can too but everyone else just go away u arent helpin u makin me feel worse like i cant be helped so go away and dont come to blubberbusters cuz u really need to see that maybe people here may want help with the weight that is cuzing them to cut and u guys dont see that and anne and ray ray seem to see that so im sorry i cuzzed this fight and i may not be back to blubberbusters because u guys made me feel worse so anne and ray ray email me please
 
Reply from chelsea, Age 15 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 205.188.116.xxx
oh..and heather..lol..i understand more then you think. You guys know what I'm talking about you just don't want to admit it. Someday when you actually grow up..you'll realize that it is stupid. you will .. trust me. The only way you guys are ever going to stop doing it is if someone tells you how stupid it is..and If you still do it..well I'm sorry..then nobody can help. I could be like..oh i understand..oh..i know what your going threw..bla bla bla..what makes you think that will help?
 
Reply from chelsea, Age 15 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 205.188.116.xxx
ok..look..jesus..you people freak out for stupid reasons..seriously. Why did you come and tell everyone then! That doesnt make any sense. I think you guys need to grow up. So tell me..now that you cut yourself and got all this attention from people..do you feel better? I was trying to help you!!!! but aparently your closed minded and can't see that. I have a life..you don't .. I'm trying to help you get one..even though i have problems that are just as serious..probably even worse...I move on and make the best of things..that is a life.. you talk about how you don't have anything to do and you cut yourself..well I'm trying to lose weight too just like everyone else and I'm depressed.. I'm trying to get you to stop..everyone else is encouraging it because they are retarded. Maybe it does make you feel better but if thats the case then find something else that makes you feel better. Do any of your friends know that you do it? What about your parents? You know..You can choose to be strong and move on or you can dwell on it and be miserable.. Sorry if i hurt anybody but I hope that you get a grip and do something else with your time.
 
Reply from Heather, Age 18 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 24.71.223.xxx
I think its impossible to know the motivation behind cutting unless you are a cutter yourself. its not fair to make comments on how it doesnt work, or doesnt do anything. people dont cut to kill themselves, they cut to feel better. both of my best friends are cutters, and it took a long time to accept it, but its no different then drinking (which harms you physically as well) or smoking or any other sort of harmful thing people do to themselves. Im not saying cutting is healthy, and im not encouraging it, but I dont think its right for people to be making judgements about something they dont understand.
 
Reply from clifford, Age 15 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 67.40.172.xxx
Chelsea or whatever ur name is my life is so hard right now I am struggling with my weight that keeps rising cuz i eat because i am sad or depressed and i cut myself because I dont no whut else to do, i am also dealing with my parents getting a divorce my dad does drugs my uncle is tryin to stop doing drugs my cousin died 2 xmass ago and life is so hard right now and i really dont apreiciate u tellin me that the only reason i cut myself is because i want attention and no that is not it i cut cuz i feel no one needs me and that im all alone and also my grandma doesnt like me and my dad said the only reason he married my mom was because i was born and that made me think i am not wanted so u can go get a life im tire of you and sayin how hard ur life is

Ok anne and ray ray thank you and I will try to loose weight right now and then make myself happy with my body and that will take awhie so i am really goin to have to try.
 
Reply from chelsea, Age 15 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 152.163.252.xxx
well actually I have.. I've been hospitalized 4 times for servere depression and I've had one of the most complicated lives you could think of. I never did cut myself because It's stupid..If I wanted to die I'd shoot myself in the head or something..I mean..come on!!! No body wants to die..if they did they would be dead by now..its not that hard to do it if you really want to. But that's not the point..if someone doesn't say something its going to keep happening. I want this person to live a good life.. I move on everyday..I don't feel sorry for myself. A lot of kids wouldn't know a hard life If it hit them in the face. Seriously...my parents are on drugs..my life sucks..I've been anorexic/ bulimic...not now but I was for 3 years..I always drink alcohol to numb my pain..but you know.. that's only the start.. I'm gonna keep moving on..and no..cutting yourself doesn't let the pain on the inside out..It doesn't and you all know it..you just want to sound hard core or something like that. Really... try to look at my point ok! Really..just stop cutting yourselves
 
Reply from Hermy, Age 10 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 66.118.99.xxx
cutting urself wont takeaway ur pain.u make think that but it wont. first think out ur life. think out what needs repairing. then try and think how you can solve that problem. find the best solution and stick to it. if that dosent work, try goin to ur school consuler or a teacher they might be able to help you ok?
 
Reply from *ray*ray*, Age 13 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 66.67.111.xxx
Chealsea you do sound mean ok. Have you ever been there? Where your so depressed that hurting yourself on the outside takes your mind off the pain on the inside? I bet you haven't. I have Chealsea, I'm there now and its not as easy as you might think to get yourself away from that spot.
 
Reply from anne, Age 17 - 04/10/04  - IP#: 216.66.107.xxx
i was depressed a couple years ago. really serious depression and that's what i used to do when i felt so horrible inside but somehow i couldn't cry until i cut myself. but, cliffy, you can take control of yourself. i went from where you are now to a little better of a place and i know that i can go even further. what i did was i set one goal at a time like- this term i'm getting straight A's. then i learned to control my body. i started making small changes like instead of soda only drink water(although milk is good for the calcium- but i don't really drink much of that either- i leave it to the cheese.lol.) then i started eating high-fiber low-calorie veggies which really really helped. i also didn't eat as much and tried to have fruit for breakfast. slimfast also helped me take control of my eating before i learned good portions and such. oh and do the taebo tape you have! it burns so many more calories in such a short amount of time even if you only do half the tape a day it's worth it. just working a litter- even though it'll take you slowly, it'll take you a long way and doing things the right way even though it's not easy will teach you that you can become the type of person you want to be. just don't give up- stay motivated and stay away from places where you know you have no control for a while, like if you can't copntrol yourself at mcdonalds or something just take a break altoghther from fast food for a while until you know you have control over things. you're my friend and i know that you can do it and you're a very creative person who i'm sure can keep herself motivated with something or another...
 
Reply from clifford, Age 15 - 04/09/04  - IP#: 67.40.172.xxx
ok i do it cuz when i feel pain on the outside it takes away my pain on the inside
 
Reply from chelsea, Age 15 - 04/09/04  - IP#: 64.12.116.xxx
hey..cutting yourself doesn't do anything. There is no reason to do it.. the only reason anyone cuts themselves is for attention..seriously..it doesnt take away problems and it doesnt make life any easier..and don't say its a form of stress relief for you because it doesnt take away that either..it does nothing but make people feel sorry for you. Maybe you just want some attention...and there is no shame in that..maybe you reaching out for someone to help... I don't know..I want to help and I know life gets hard..trust me my life isn't a bowl of cherries..lol really it isn't.. and If you ever need someone to talk to my e mail is PainFilledEyes21@aol.com.. I'm not trying to be mean at all but the point is that cutting yourself is stupid and doesnt do anything. Hang in there..things will get better..just keep trying ..never give up..one of these days it will happen!!!
 
Reply from Stacie, Age 13 - 04/09/04  - IP#: 152.163.252.xxx
tell someone about the cutting and they'll help...i promise!!
 
Reply from michelle, Age 15 - 04/09/04  - IP#: 152.163.252.xxx
Ok calm down Sarah. Im going to help you. I want you to eat anywhere from 1200 to 1800 calories of good food. Dont drink any soda...only water, milk and juice. Eat at least one salad a day. Write down everything you eat and try to keep count of the calories that you eat. Do something physical for at least 15 minutes each day but if your body feels tired take a day off. Give it a month and youll see results. I know it works because I lost ten pounds in a month but I got lazy after I saw results so now I have to start over.