From Gabrielle, Age 12 - 07/28/13 - IP#:  Click here to reply  
Ht. 145 cm, Start: 53 kg, Today: 54 kg (BMI %tile: 95), Goal: 41 kg - Damn. Just gained 5kg. Everyone is commenting on my belly and asking to feel it and when I ask why they say because I love squishy fat. I went to the doctor the other day and they said I was classified obese. She asked to feel my belly and she said I am concerned about the amount of fat inside me. :( I tried to kill myself the other day. Nothing is working. I hate life.  (Note: 145 cm, 54 kg is 4'9", 119 lb.)
Reply from Holly, Age 12 - 07/28/13  - IP#:
Please don't kill yourself! Trust me I've almost been there. I thought about doing it so much I nearly had a panic attack. I know it's hard, but forget about the rude comments. I hate my life too, but as much as I don't want to, I'm going to a therapist. I've been there once and it wasn't that bad. I hate that it takes me 30 an hour to pick a shirt just because nothing looks good on me, and I can't wear sweaters since it's summer. I hate the fact that there are some things that you just can't change. I hate that I'm so self conscious. I hate the fact that I constantly feel out of place and misunderstood. I hate the fact that my thoughts always race and get messed up and my words come out jumbled, (probably like right now.) But honestly, I kinda want to stick around to see when the "misfit toys" finally win. I want a "Look at me now" moment. I suggest you ask for help because you don't want to feel worse. You might not think so, but a lot can happen in such little time. Don't wait for it to get worse. I'm here if you want to talk. :\