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From Melissa, Age 18

Ht. 5'4", Start: 190 lb, Today: 162 lb, Goal: 130 lb - Now, I don't know if you can consider this different but it's not just any brother, it's my twin. (twins will understand) I've grown up with him, I talk to him every night before bed, we know each other so well, he's my best friend. He has had a history of being kind of an asshole in front of his friends but most of the time I just look past it - you know, whole male dominance crap...blah blah "look how cool I am." Whatever. Well tonight, I jokingly called him a fatty because he was eating food I had made for a party tomorrow. I said JOKINGLY, "Don't eat the food, ya fatty." And he looks at me and says quite seriuosly in front of his friend, "You're one to talk." I was so shocked I didn't even know what to say, sure I'm a little on the chubby side and have had some weight issues in my life but WOW. Even his friend was like "Wow, jerk." My brother has never had weight problems so there's no reason for him to be sensitive about the subject but he knows that I've struggled with weight for years. Is he really so inconsiderate that he doesn't notice that I'm insecure enough as it is? My mom asked me why I was so mad, and I told her what happened then my dad went and yelled at him, and he came and apologized...wasnt very genuine but for him to get past his pride and do that was rare. I don't want it to be weird now, because he usually stays mad about these things for a couple days...I just wish he knew not to say things like that to me or to anybody. I'm trying so hard to lose weight and get healthy and I don't know how to explain it, it's like when I hear things like that I just wanna go eat....i haven't luckily, I'm just writing this post to vent...I dont know what to do anymore.