we have all been there and have felt the same things you do about yourself. you are still as or more beautiful then people or yourself take you to be. beauty is not your weight . i know many people who rather be with a girl with weight on her then an anorexic cheerleader.the media makes people feel bad about them selves ..they think beauty as a type..and its a very close minded world out there..dont take anything seriously..as a close friend of mine told me ..everythings perfect you just make it wrong. dont let it bother you and live on. if you ever need anything e mail me at iwantyoutodie15@aol.com