Boy can I sympathize. I am 5'8 and weigh 205lbs. You see, with me. I get into random kicks. One day, I'll be depressed and won't eat anything hoping it will help, then the next, I'm like, "screw it, if some one doesn't like me the way I am, it's there problem" But I've realized it was my problem too. I am in love with theatre, and dance. Not being in shape, I can't do the things I love to the best of my ability. It's hard for me to see the time when I can be at the weight I desire, but unless you start taking the steps, you'll never get there. I know how easy it would be just to wish the weight away, but it won't happen. So, find some activity you love and keep to it, it will keep your mind off food and help you lose weight at the same time! Even though it may get hard, don't give up. It'll be worth it in the end. No matter how long it takes to get there. If it were easy, we wouldn't value it half as much. Good luck to you! If you would like to talk or have a diet buddy, e-mail me at pixie_dust_piper@hotmail.com.