wow!! U sound like someone i know!! How weird. Anyways some good advice. But if you truly love something..than the simple fact is that you want to have or do that something as much as possible. there is no time to heal or take a breather. You have to show how much you love it. everyone needs to see how devoted you are to it. soccer ( for example )is addicting. It is a drug. when you find something that you love like i do, Rose, then you will see the power of it. U dont ever want to let it go. thanks again...luv ya lots