Reply Continued from Leigh, Age ~~ - 6/8/03 - IP#: 65.163.106.xxx   bigbb-c9977

... The second day i went to the diner in town for breakfast and had 2 bowls of frosted flakes, 5 pieces of sausage and 4 pancakes. For lunch i ate 3 big macs. and for dinner i went over to a friends house and had 2 steaks and lots and lots of mashed potatoes with lots and lots and lots of butter and gravy! I did the same thing for almost 2 weeks and then by Wednesday of the second week I started to feel funny. I was going to put on some clothes and goup to the diner for a snack and when i tried to put on my size 10/12 Womens clothes they were too tight way too tight! I didnt think i had gained much weight until i went on the scale and weighed myself! I had gained 7 lbs.!i had weighed 198 but then i weighed 205! i thought i could lose it. and i really thought no one would notice since i hadnt. When my parents got home i was in my sports bra cutting grass and my dad came up to me and said,"what have you done to yourself?" I asked what he meant and he took me inside and stood me in front of my mirror. I didnt see anything too too unusual. I was in complete denial until one of my bffs came over and said," Oh my god leigh! What are those white things on your stomach?" I looked down and there were stretch marks all across the fronts and sides of my stomach! My big bro came grabbed a hunk of my fat off my tummy and said,"Good God sis i knew you were a pile of flab when we left but i didnt think you were this fat!" I said that nothing had changed and that i was no bigger than when they left. My bro said whatever and grabbed the whole pile of flab on my stomach and lifted it up and then dropped it and i could feel it shaking like the jello i had eaten earlier that week. Finally when my parents stopped hounding me i realized i was hungry and stayed in my room for 5 hrs. and did nothing but eat and eat and eat. It made me feel good to eat! That was 9 months ago. I am now 267 lbs. i've hit rock bottom. Being fat even keeps me up at night because i can feel my stomach stretching to hold more fat.i'll literally hurt myself by eating so much that i cant handle it anymore and even after that i still eat more. I NEED HELP I ABSOULUTLY CAN'T STOP EATING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE REPLY ME WITH WORDS OF ENCOURAGEMENT HELP TIPS OR EVEN RUDE THINGS MAYBE IT'LL MOTIVATE ME TO STOP EATING WHEN I'M FULL!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU ! LEIGH~