i so know what your going through, i've even thought about suicide too,cause i'm REALLY overweight.but don't worry, i found somthing really great its called the atkins diet. theres 4 books on it and in 2 days i've lost 4 pounds. thats pretty good because usually you only lose 20 pounds in 2 MONTHS!!! so by summer i might be able not to where my thick black jacket you can get the book if you wan't but the rules are really easy;20 grams of not calories but carbohydrates!!!! it's really easy!! the reason i tried it is everyone calls me names and i have absolutely no friends. so everyday just check the carbs this diet has actually prevented diabettes just try it for 2 weeks reply back on the umm...board?