Hey! I feel the same. I lost heaps of weight but then put it back on, and feel gross. I have tried so hard to lose it but cant get back into that mind frame i used to have. I have no willpower anymore! And its so hard now that im out of school. I feel disgusted at myself, and really want to be back to where i was. If you feel like emailing we can chat: fruit_salad_yummy_yummy@hotmail.com