i know ur pain !! dont call urself a fat ugly pig though that isnt goin to help ur self of steem ! and everyone has feelings and juss dont let those mean people who call u fat or ugly get to u !!! i did and it got me no where !!! be yourself and become beautiful by working out ... it doesnt have to be a lot but walk around your neighborhood like once or twice i used to weigh like 160 and i started walkin and i am now like 145 - 150 ! people say i am fat but i dont let it get me down i juss go do some work out videos or something ! and when u are feeling down and depressed dont eat for comfort do something else ! i always hug my teddy bear even though i am 13 i dont care what people think u shouldnt either juss be happy with what you are and if you not then make it better !! sorry i wrote a lot !