Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. It is not an option. The first thing you have to do is accept yourself. If you don't, nobody else will. Love who you are now, and that will help you change yourself into what you want to be. You can accomplish your goals. As for your family, they need help. They should love you for you no matter what. If they can't change their ways, find others who will support you. I hope you will find your way. Remember that all of us here are always going to be supportive of you. We will never give up on you.