thanks gerogina you always reply to my stupid posts and give great advice. I was just having a bad day. I try really hard to be positive about everything but sometimes its so hard when it feels like the whole world is against you. And yes, like everyone else i do have great qualities and i also have great friends. Thanks for reminding me of that. And by the way i dont hate skinny people!!! they dont make me angry. i used to be skinny myself before i gained this weight. It is just difficult to show people your qualities when they simply judge you by your appearance and walk away. I am just jealous of girls who never even give a second thought to their weight. Like most of the people on this site, probably including you, I would give anything to stop worrying and struggling with food and weight issues. Thanks georgina for always replying!