Liz, you give lots of encouragement and support to the kids who visit this site. I wish I could think of something to say to encourage you but I can't. I am an ex-anorexic and it makes me so sad to see how much pain food and eating and weight causes people! The is not better for me now that I am not fat anymore (sorry if that makes you angry!). But I know that people are more than just a weight. Like you can have things (qualities) like being caring, thoughtful, funny, clever, a good friend, artistic, good at sport, good at cooking, cheerful or whatever that are nothing to do with your weight. And you are probably lots of those things! I hpe you will feel bettr tomorrow!!!! Georgina