It sounds like ur friends are not real friends if they are so mean to you! Are you a member of any clubs or activities? They can be a good way to make new and genuine friends who have lots in common with you and would accept you for who you are. If it was a sport cub like swimming or anything active it would also help you to lose weight. I would like to help you if I can cos you seem like such a nice and thoughtful and intelligent person!! I remember you wrote that lovely poem which i showed to my auntie and she said it's like a real talent!!! How tall are you and how much do you weigh? And how much do you want to lose? You also need tpo think about exactly what changes you need to make for it to become easier to lose weight (like more active, change eating, eat less or whatever). Good luck! Georgina