Hi, my boyfriend is the exact same way. I am about 232 lbs now...and he doesnt even care. He is super skinny...like 140...and i feel so bad being by him. I feel like i am really fat and dont know why he is with me. anyway...i dont know...my friends are the same way too. I am bigger than all of them and they say i look just fine the way i am. well...sorry i really cant help you...but I know exactly what you are going through. Although...I have lost 11 lbs since I started coming to this site! Yay~