yeah i know exactly how u feel. its the same with me. i attract guys coz i have a pretty face & i cover up my fat well but then when they realize im as fat as i am they go of me! guys r shallow like that. dont worry though they're not all like that. the boyfriend i have at the moment doesnt care. i care more than he does. i feel uncomfortable but he's not bothered about my fat. i never thought id find a boyfriend while i was fat but it goes to show there is hope!! I'd love 2 b email buddies. my address is alwayzsmiling4u@yahoo.co.uk