hi um i no exactly how you feel.Everything you said is just like me execpt the homecoming and sweetheartsdance.i cry everynight to but not really out loud.i cry in my heart.because i cant do things other skinny girls can do.but look at it this way, skinny girls cant have the freedom of feeling like a women because they will still shop in the misses department for a while. they will still feel like little girls.but that was just something my mom told me to boost your confidence.if you really want to loose weight (like me) dont just wait for people to reply this message, do some of your own research go to the bulletin boards archives (the arrow at the top) and look at everyones ideas for loosong weight.then put them together and form your own diet like i did. you can also search other places too but this worked best for me.but if you ever need some one to talk to email me at twa@mailpuppy.com