I just happened to be browsing through this board, not planning on responding to anyone but your message grabbed me. I was overweight in high school, but I have lost some weight now. I know what is like to be down in the slumms but don't ever hate yourself. You can be unhappy with your appearance but that does not mean you are not a great person. You just have to put this "hate" that you have into motivation. You probally sit there and get depressed about it and eat more.... You have to take that depression and start walking. Then you will build up to do other things and lose weight in the mean time. Cut out the junk food, eat smaller portions, eat more fruits and vegetables, drink a lot of water (this is so great for you) and stay physically active. You will lose weight, gain self confidence, and overall feel better. It is never to late to start the rest of your life!!! Good Luck to you!