Never give up :). This is a monster trying to control you, and you know that you have the power to beat it up before it gets to you :)...show it your strength, and always remember that you're in charge of what you eat, what you eat can never be in charge of you. Best of all, think positive. If you believe that you can do it, then you can. Believe and you can achieve...trust me :). If you want someone to talk to, you can email me at sugarnsweets@hotmail.com... I love talking lol... we all at blubberbusters see great potential in you, and you have to see it in yourself ... it's there..all the good stuff is already in you, it's up to you how you use it. And I know you can use it well, so good luck!!! We're all rootin' for ya!