don't give up on life!!... i have a depression disorder and on top of that my brother tries to kill me... but thats another story. the point i'm trying to make is that life is always worth living, and if you don't like something about yourself then change it!! i realized that when i was in one of my suicidal stages. i knew that if i gave up on life then it wouldnt bring me relief... i'd feel worse because i didnt try to do anything about it! you just should never give up, and do everything in your power to try to change yourself until you're happy. goodluck!!!