I know exactly how you feel, i would also think, happiness would come at 140, or 130, or 120...I realize im on a destructive path too, but i can't seem to stop. I have myself utterly convinced i will be so happy weighing 120 lbs. but im scared that once i get there, it won't be enough. I used to wiegh as much as you did before you lose the weight. Im 5'6, or taller, haven't measured myself in 2 yrs. I weigh, according to my scale at home, 137 lbs. write back if u wanna chat