god, i so understand you, and major, i mean major congrats on how youve come so far, it takes so much to do what youve done, u should be soo proud of yourself. Ive had many of those long and hard days too, where its just so frustrating. Im 5'5' and 138 lbs, i used to be 155 last year, and i too decided that enough was enough. My goal is 120 lbs, and a size 2, and most of all, my dream....a flat stomach. How r u doing ur diet and excercise? Id love any new tips or something i haven't heard, I go to the gym about 6 days a week, and kickboxing three days a week. I don't eat any junk food, no cereal or juice, just water, and lots of that special Kellogs cereal that has no fat, and skim milk. I cut out white bread, and cheese, and heavy meats. The scale still has awhile before it makes any real changes, but i do see little changes in my body. Im very sure you'll reach your goal of 130lbs, but im also sure, that once your there, your gonna want to be thinner, ive seen people say, "oh, once im 135, ill be happy," then they make it, and its not enough, its 130, then 120, then 100. Ive seen it happen, you might not think it will happen to you, but once you get there, ull see, or maybe u'll be stronger than that media "skinny" bull, and be happy w/ 130. Just be careful, and keep up the awesome job!