Hi John. I read ur letter n believe me, i have about the same problem! i weigh in at 160-170lbs n feel sooo unattractive. But believe me, eating healthy is one thing but torturing ur body is another. DO NOT USE WEIGHTS!!! They can stunt ur growth n ruin ur joints n etc,etc... I also think ur expecting bit 2 much of urself but then im being nosy so i'll shut up right about now. if u wanna be my dieting buddy my e-mail is M_J_CHAPMAN@YAHOO.CO.UK. c u :)