Hey samantha, i read the other replies and i just found them really insensitive. The first thing i thought when i read your entry was i can relate to how your feeling but i know saying that you think of killing yourself means you are at an ultimate low. I found it terrible that all other people could say to you for support is "how tall are you" I have some suggestions, if your interested - its hard to stick to diets and its good you play a sport but that might not be enough. If its your mom who controls your diet its probably not the best plan. It has to be you who takes control and decides when you eat what, that way you are the one showing motivation, not someone else doing it for you. Good luck!