Hey i understand what you mean about your friends being smaller than you are, all of mine are too. I really enjoy hanging out and shopping with them but its kinda depressing when they want to go inside a store that i know nothing will fit me. Im in the process of a nice safe diet and its worked pretty well so far...i am a big athlete and as a freshman i played on the Varsity soccer team for my highschool this year we won the state championship!!! I know i will never be really really skinny because i have alot of muscle and big bones...i now weigh 160 i used to weigh 175 before i started my diet, i believe my ideal weight would be about 140 or 135. so maybe hoping to weigh 120 is a little ambitios on your part but its good to set a goal!! I would like to wear the cloths my friends wear and i would also like boys to find me attractive.........i know what you're feeling.....write me anytime at Tuckyfilly@aol.com yours, shelby