wow- worring about your weight that much is harsh. i know you're worried about your health but you were just making it worse- you could die by wearing out your asophagus- that's pretty bad. try not to feed into society so much and just take it one step at a time- like for a goal for one day drink as much water as you can- for another day eat less and drink more- and i mean eat less by eating healthier foods instead of junk food!