Reply from Jessica, Age 17 - 12/9/00 - IP#: 207.241.138.130Hey There, I think you are probably a gorgeous girl. It shouldn't matter what other people think about you. I know how you feel. When I was in 4th through 7th grade I had no friends at all not even a boyfriend and it was only because I was fat. My mom would cry because she felt so bad for me. One day I just decided that I had to do something about it. There was no way that I could go on with no friends. So I made myself eat smaller portions. Even though I was so hungry and could've eaten more I didn't. Soon, all the hard work that I did began to pay off. I'm not the absolute skinniest now, but Im not fat. I'm a good enough size now to realize that I can still help myself and I try to emphasize the things I like about myself. I try not to get sad when I see all the skinnier girls at school. Im really sorry that you're mom called you all those names. My best friend doesn't know her father, her mom used to call her names, and she used to be suicidal too.Her mother said if it wasn't for me we wouldve lost her.Together we made ourselves work together because we wanted to be beautiful. You are lucky that you have a boyfriend who cares about you but if he breaks up with you just for the way you look, he isn't worth it. Try being single for a while and just focus on helping yourself and boosting your esteem. Things will get a lot better. Trust me. |