Im 5'5' and 140lbs too, same as you, but i don't consider myself fat, and neither should you. I understand what ur going through, and im not just saying that. im trying to lose wieght and be 125 lbs. Did you know that stress and depression can cause you to become fatter? it can, your emotional state is intertwined with your body, so you can't do one without the other. You have to work on looking at life differently, and when your happier, your body will change along with it.I know it feels hard to get out of the very dark place i know u must be in, and i know its not easy to get rid of all the pain, but nothings gonna happen if you don't try and if you don't love yourself enough first. Don't focus on just the physical appearance because u really won't get anywhere if you just focus on that. Im here for u, just as all the other girls who are trying to lose wieght, and have gone through the exact same thing your going through. Hope to hear from you soon, love life.