Matt, I know that it doesn't feel good to be fat because I weigh 302, I think we think way too much about losing weight, instead of being healthy. Why don't you try some kind of activity that you like doing like swimming or riding a bike (so that it doesn't feel like exercise) and just try to eat healtier. I always have to tell myself that the food isn't going anywhere, especially during holidays. Eat a balance of meat, veggies, and carbs. And don't cheat yourself! If you want a piece of pie, then have one. Think healthy, not thin!