Thinking about death will absouletly not help. Think happy thoughts but stick to reality. I'm trying to lose weight too i'm trying a no carbohydrates diet ( not a lot bread pasta or anything made out of wheat or something like that). I'm also sticking to salads more they're really good too try different healthier stuff it might be better than the fatty stuff. If ya need more help email me at SilverBlackRed@aol.com